Last week during our family gathering, we discussed it together, and I decided to leave the company after completing my six-month startup experience. We agreed I would work through this month, and I was supposed to be on a flight to Hong Kong today, but I decided not to go on the business trip. Obeying the voice of the Holy Spirit within my heart, in the face of the temptations of success, money, and new challenges, was a harder battle than I imagined. These past three months were such that I felt this must be spiritual warfare, and that this is how one could develop mental illness. It was a time when, without arming myself with early morning prayer and the Word, not a single day passed with peace of mind. Though they packaged it with blockchain technology, I could not share the vision with founders who ultimately aimed to make money through gambling games.

I was trapped in a whirlwind of thoughts: the pressure to stay until the end and achieve worldly success, the belief that enduring this pain was necessary to become a true entrepreneur, the guilt of abandoning the project I proposed, and the regret of walking away from a massive opportunity. Caught between these conflicting thoughts, unable to move forward or back, I lost confidence and was overwhelmed by anxiety. On the other hand, this process uncovered hidden sins from my past. Acknowledging and healing from them deepened my appreciation for my wife and family. And through it all, I realized that even my weak faith was actually a gift from God.

Once my relationship with God was restored and I could objectively look at myself again, I asked: Could I truly bring glory to God through this business opportunity? The answer was very simple. The moment I let go of the greed I had been clutching in my hands, I fell to my knees, and the tears I had held back for so long poured out. It felt like a child admitting their mistake to their parents and seeking their embrace. I notified the company representative by email, and after a meal meeting this week, we settled things amicably. From now on, I move forward seeking the miracle of manna in the wilderness.